tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-191782282024-03-07T22:59:08.614-05:00A Right GapesnestM. Lubbershttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13689096558796490683noreply@blogger.comBlogger877125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-19178228.post-2218167571530416192012-04-05T14:50:00.003-04:002012-04-05T14:52:44.606-04:00It's Spring!<a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEirz4kFtKRcSh2Uy_bGF__VFDi1TaPK66dzs7uTt4mvtfwJc13pslJcr4g2mmxePmGJuYUWtGuVR71w_EuADWqqGARcWckucIPu_h1DGYHE1whhkpvXQb4fmEtwPoQYkMJfvrQ/s1600/header_spring12.jpg"><img style="display:block; margin:0px auto 10px; text-align:center;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 400px; height: 63px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEirz4kFtKRcSh2Uy_bGF__VFDi1TaPK66dzs7uTt4mvtfwJc13pslJcr4g2mmxePmGJuYUWtGuVR71w_EuADWqqGARcWckucIPu_h1DGYHE1whhkpvXQb4fmEtwPoQYkMJfvrQ/s400/header_spring12.jpg" border="0" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5727991547665609250" /></a><br />I've finally committed to a Spring theme on the blog. Keith took a new picture for me over a week ago, but I was afraid that if I switched too early, it would jinx everything and snow would start falling the very next day. <div><br /></div><div>Does this mean it won't snow tomorrow? Of course not! The first year we moved up to Cleveland, we had to dig out to drive to my parents' house for Easter. But I think I've waited long enough that you can't blame the snow on my blog header. </div>M. Lubbershttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13689096558796490683noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-19178228.post-48384981724324191712012-04-05T09:12:00.004-04:002012-04-05T14:34:06.219-04:00Photo Extravaganza!<a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEip0XEiQOh4kvtc2VoiOTup-yO_17A9GCSr1ZCRdJoHrFFuLYWIFNwRPwWB68hl4uWDIb_-QaxXxfQFkBCXRAAo0r_20oK7kEcbyRAtH9SiivDPVRhm5rs_1pQn_9Z2gi5ZuL4/s1600/busy.jpg"><img style="float:left; margin:0 10px 10px 0;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 320px; height: 214px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEip0XEiQOh4kvtc2VoiOTup-yO_17A9GCSr1ZCRdJoHrFFuLYWIFNwRPwWB68hl4uWDIb_-QaxXxfQFkBCXRAAo0r_20oK7kEcbyRAtH9SiivDPVRhm5rs_1pQn_9Z2gi5ZuL4/s320/busy.jpg" border="0" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5727905157526524578" /></a>I've been trying for a month now to sort through all of our photos and print them. It takes forever!<div><br /></div><div>My goal is always to print photos about 4 times a year. We use <a href="http://www.snapfish.com">Snapfish</a>, and there's usually some kind of deal going on. Penny prints (only one cent per print, up to 300) just ended, and now there's free shipping on orders over $30. We're happy with Snapfish's prices and service, so the final ordering part is easy.</div><div><br /></div><div>What's hard is deciding which photos to print. I often think that I couldn't imagine having kids before digital cameras, where you actually had to pay for film and getting pictures developed. It's astonishing how many pictures we take and never even use. For every one picture that we print, there's probably another 4 or 5 that we took at the same time, so we could make sure to get a good, usable shot.</div><div><br /></div><div>In contrast, I often find myself drawn to the not very good pictures. We splurged for a nice camera with a few good lenses, which means that we have some gorgeous pictures of our kids that we'll treasure forever. But I also kind of like the blurry and off-center shots. Like the one above: I really like that one because I feel like it better conveys what our lives are like right now. The living room looks like an exploded toy bin, everyone is moving in different directions, and Gomez serenely watches over all. We also have some really grainy, awful low-light shots that Eleanor took on my iPod. They are of Keith and Declan, in Declan's room, in the early days after his birth. I like those shots because have that sense of late-night desperation and sleep deprevation that are the true hallmarks of having a newborn. All those beautiful close-ups of a peacefully sleeping baby? They are beautiful, but far removed from real life. </div><div><br /></div><div>Of course, I'm not going to enlarge and frame those blurry bad photos. I don't show them to anyone. (Except, of course, on my blog!) But I like to print them and quietly put them away in albums, tucked in-between the beautiful shots, to remind myself not of how living with a baby looks, but how it feels. </div>M. Lubbershttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13689096558796490683noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-19178228.post-54562089844413136852012-03-30T14:52:00.003-04:002012-03-30T14:56:08.197-04:00Cathartic Haiku: Smart Ass StudentIn class, you sneer, sigh.<div>In email, you ask for help.</div><div>Just admit you care.</div>M. Lubbershttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13689096558796490683noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-19178228.post-21498033458396610272012-03-29T00:56:00.004-04:002012-03-29T01:06:36.709-04:00They Really Like Me! (Or at least one does)FINALLY! I have a review on <a href="http://www.ratemyprofessors.com/ShowRatings.jsp?tid=1547228">Rate My Professors</a>. I've checked many times before, hoping for and craving positive feedback from legions of anonymous students who were all inspired by my exciting yet informative and challenging class. For the longest time, there was complete silence.<br /><br />Apparently, I forgot all about it when I wasn't teaching last semester. I mentioned to Keith earlier this week that I didn't have any ratings and he said I was wrong. I did have a rating, and I even got a chili pepper for hotness! What exciting news!<br /><br />Unfortunately, when I checked out my rating, I was a tad bit disappointed. With a mere two sentences, my former student managed to make two different grammatical errors. Plus, the rating was posted last summer ... at which time I was only teaching an online class. I suppose I can hope that the reviewer was a former on-campus student, and the chili pepper is actually based on the student seeing me, not on one fuzzy picture in my Blackboard profile. And the grammar mistakes were .... meant ironically? Let's go with that.<br /><br />Anyway, thanks for the positive review, anonymous!M. Lubbershttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13689096558796490683noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-19178228.post-28539477239055912692012-03-28T15:11:00.003-04:002012-03-28T15:49:20.141-04:00We're Famous!<div style="text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhtd-DT5nYqnaM41Adu5_1kZbu8BLR47oL2Bjbf_KjIXX1OqETaKAGyr1Vp5SECOgs4RgoBNaPf_fZCHsJ2wCPHcXKdkfTCG-qXWVCkGLUxsSGH_bjmULuFzqqoPN5UyR24sEU/s1600/10754824-standard.jpg"><img style="display:block; margin:0px auto 10px; text-align:center;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 294px; height: 400px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhtd-DT5nYqnaM41Adu5_1kZbu8BLR47oL2Bjbf_KjIXX1OqETaKAGyr1Vp5SECOgs4RgoBNaPf_fZCHsJ2wCPHcXKdkfTCG-qXWVCkGLUxsSGH_bjmULuFzqqoPN5UyR24sEU/s400/10754824-standard.jpg" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5725028113757618978" border="0" /></a></div><div style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-style: italic;">Image credit: Chuck Crowe / The Plain Dealer</span><br /><br /></div>Yesterday, after picking Eleanor up from preschool, we went to Daffodil Hill in <a href="http://www.lakeviewcemetery.com/index.php">Lake View Cemetery</a> and brought a picnic lunch. While we wandered around to look at the daffodils, this older guy with a fancy camera seemed to be taking pictures of us. It was rather creepy, until he introduced himself as a photographer for <span style="font-style: italic;">The Plain Dealer</span>, took down our names, and gave us a business card. He said the picture would in today's or tomorrow's paper; I was excited when I got a call from my uncle this morning saying that there was a large picture of us on the front page of the Metro section. It's also on the<a href="http://www.cleveland.com/plaindealer/"> front page</a> of <span style="font-style: italic;">The Plain Dealer</span>'s site (scroll down, on the left), and has <a href="http://photos.cleveland.com/plain-dealer/2012/03/daffodil_hill_draws_flower_lov.html">its own post</a>.<br /><br />It's funny how things work out. We had actually tried to go to Daffodil Hill over the weekend, but between the two kids' naps, it didn't work out on Saturday or Sunday. I mentioned to Keith on the phone yesterday that I had finally managed to find Daffodil Hill in the cemetery, and he suggested taking Eleanor after school.<br /><br />What you can't see in this photo (thank goodness!) is that, at school that day, she had a beach party to celebrate the end of their unit on the ocean. Under her winter coat, she's wearing:<br /><ul><li>a bathing suit</li><li>a halter top beach dress<br /></li><li>leggings</li><li>cupcake socks that don't match her dress at all</li><li>a black sweater that, like the socks, don't really match, but it was the only one I could convince her to wear<br /></li></ul><p>On her face were the remnants of their snack: dyed blue cream cheese on an English muffin, with a few Goldfish "swimming" on top. Her mouth and parts of her cheeks were blue.<br /></p><p>I'm just glad that I managed to get a shower that morning, while Declan slept for 20 minutes before we went to pick Eleanor up. Most days, my hair is a frizzy mess, pulled back in a sloppy bun. What luck!<br /></p>M. Lubbershttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13689096558796490683noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-19178228.post-60562614641592400692012-03-26T06:28:00.000-04:002012-03-26T06:28:00.496-04:00Cathartic Haiku: Just Trying to Drive"Excuse YOU!" he yells<br />While jaywalking my green light.<br />And I'm the asshole.M. Lubbershttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13689096558796490683noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-19178228.post-74305282664069741012012-03-25T18:26:00.005-04:002012-03-31T15:41:40.503-04:00It's a Pity Compliment, But I'll Take It!<a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgmo842OyyWenvTycJZTVMXnHW8wpkk04zIN4X9r_FkAjyGkbqGaFf9OskaA2UwThYQreoTtKkUkqmSLEivtHDepeObpPuhhRzHhRqsRSWYMUdJxwee7KnpRZ43F4S3n1f8W2U/s1600/Meg_stupid.jpg"><img style="float:left; margin:0 10px 10px 0;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 200px; height: 134px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgmo842OyyWenvTycJZTVMXnHW8wpkk04zIN4X9r_FkAjyGkbqGaFf9OskaA2UwThYQreoTtKkUkqmSLEivtHDepeObpPuhhRzHhRqsRSWYMUdJxwee7KnpRZ43F4S3n1f8W2U/s320/Meg_stupid.jpg" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5723965150129461714" border="0" /></a>I've finally started running again, for the first time since last May when I was about 4 months pregnant.<br /><br />It's always hard to get started again, after taking time off. It can be disheartening to think about the fact that I've run 2 half-marathons and countless 5ks and 10ks, but now I can barely get through 2 slow miles without walking. And of course, I have a significant amount of pregnancy and post-natal stress eating weight to lose; that doesn't help.<br /><br />But the challenge is what I love and hate about running. Whether I'm trying to get faster or go further or get back into the routine, it's difficult. Sometimes I get frustrated, and wish it wasn't so hard. But most of the time, I like knowing that running won't let me down. I can always count on running to kick my butt.<br /><br />This time around, I've been doing a lot of my running with Eleanor in the running stroller. Before the first time I took her out, we had a big talk about how Mommy isn't as fast as Daddy and sometimes Mommy needs to walk. So Eleanor needed to understand that I wasn't in very good shape, and not give me a hard time about it.<br /><br />So far, she's been wonderful! She even cheers me on at the end. "Come on, Mommy! You can do it!" She's actually pretty good company, even though it's hard for me to carry on a conversation sometimes.<br /><br />A week or so ago, Eleanor and I went for a 2-mile run after Keith got home from work. It was pretty hot and humid, especially for early March. By the end of the run, my hair was a frizzy mess, I was soaked in sweat, and my running clothes were emitting a powerful stench. My belly, which still looks about 4-months pregnant (only with Coke and peanut butter M&Ms this time), gently stretched the front of my hot pink running shirt. We went to the end of a driveway to cross to our side of the street. We waited for a man on a bike to go past us.<br /><br />As we waited, I made eye contact and smiled in a friendly, neighborly way. He smiled back and nodded. Once he was nearly past us, he called out, "Hi, Gorgeous!"<br /><br />I was so surprised, it took me a moment to even process what he said. Normally I'd assume that he was complimenting my wonderful child, but this time he was clearly looking at me. Me?!? Seriously? I wouldn't call it false modesty. When in shape, freshly showered and made up, I'm reasonably attractive. But at this moment, I was none of those things.<br /><br />By the time we got home, I had figured out what was going on. This guy saw me, a pudgy and worn out mom, and immediately realized I needed a boost of self-confidence. So he saw fit to provide one. His smile didn't feel lascivious, but kindly. It was a pity compliment, but I'll take it!M. Lubbershttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13689096558796490683noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-19178228.post-5104091770120139382012-03-21T15:21:00.002-04:002012-03-21T23:04:58.274-04:00Outside!<a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhFvQRdRYgdQPFbiFDsfpRUL61LwzLbNrGG0tr2tWxjsEcbXOYgHgYWTqH0P4qKkw2W9hhwyVHV0PqDGWGTtBXThU6kH3BQIBEePgEQ0_y_c0x3YvZv2zxnhdlBVhumo2jUsZQ/s1600/outside.jpg"><img style="float:left; margin:0 10px 10px 0;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 240px; height: 320px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhFvQRdRYgdQPFbiFDsfpRUL61LwzLbNrGG0tr2tWxjsEcbXOYgHgYWTqH0P4qKkw2W9hhwyVHV0PqDGWGTtBXThU6kH3BQIBEePgEQ0_y_c0x3YvZv2zxnhdlBVhumo2jUsZQ/s320/outside.jpg" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5722550759521968658" border="0" /></a>In the past couple weeks, we've spent as much time outside as possible. All of Eleanor's outdoor toys have been dusted off and put to good use. The sidewalk chalk, tricycle, hula hoop, bubbles, sunglasses. I've gone for a run 4 times in the past week and a half. FOUR TIMES!!!<br /><br />Two weeks ago, I would have said that I haven't run since last May, when I was 4-5 months pregnant with Declan. But the crazy warm weather has changed all that.<br /><br />I promised myself that, every once in a while, I will actually step out of my comfort zone on the blog and say something that could possibly be construed as controversial. So: I believe that global warming is a reality. I believe that it is caused by human activity. I believe that it's not solely the fault of our generation, and it's definitely not the fault of our kids' generation, but we will have to find a way to fix it, or else we're all in big trouble.<br /><br />Frankly, I really can't understand why that is considered controversial, and the fact that it is makes me a little sad. Why does empirical evidence need to be controversial?<br /><br />But anyway: I have no idea if our current warm weather is related to global warming. If it is, that's shocking and wrong. ..... But for now, I am enjoying the sun and the warm breeze and having all of my windows open and wearing sandals. It doesn't mean I'm going to stop working on minimizing my carbon footprint, but I do think I need a new sundress.M. Lubbershttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13689096558796490683noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-19178228.post-36367444170032659162012-03-19T21:41:00.003-04:002012-03-19T22:25:10.003-04:00Minivan-Driving Soccer Mom<a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEi1lzvpM6KCewywngb8E-26lAdF7m0faJgs2oIRBKq1aDRSrZc2_cbHK0ES9bj1QWmVBn_SgmyQW66mHE5wvBtYxrI_PC6sHcBqKx0EXbklWPBXZLBlsDyJ-Ltzjgm5GgX08LU/s1600/sienna.gif"><img style="float:left; margin:0 10px 10px 0;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 320px; height: 175px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEi1lzvpM6KCewywngb8E-26lAdF7m0faJgs2oIRBKq1aDRSrZc2_cbHK0ES9bj1QWmVBn_SgmyQW66mHE5wvBtYxrI_PC6sHcBqKx0EXbklWPBXZLBlsDyJ-Ltzjgm5GgX08LU/s320/sienna.gif" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5721794236014659842" border="0" /></a>We're thinking about buying a minivan. We've always been compact car people, but Declan's arrival, occurring at the same time as Eleanor being old enough for playdates without needing the other parent, means we would really like to be able to fit three carseats into our vehicle. That's not going to happen with either our Matrix or the Cavalier. An SUV is definitely too big, but I can deal with a minivan.<br /><br />I was discussing this issue with a friend who is in the same situation. I scoffed at the fact that so many people refuse to buy minivans because they are unwilling to admit that they are now Those People: parents with several kids who value functionality more than appearance or speed. Neither Keith nor I have ever been car people, and I've never had a "cool" car.<br /><br />I told my friend that I was totally okay with being a "minivan-driving soccer mom." She pointed out that it's not really the literal fact of actually being a mom who drives a minivan and whose kids play soccer that people detest. It's the image of the stereotypical soccer mom that drives people crazy.<br /><br />After this conversation, I started wondering: What do I think of, when I hear the term "soccer mom?" Keith supplied another moniker of "helicopter parent." We decided that it indicates a parent who's generally overaggressive. She's very involved in her kids' lives, even when they should be starting to branch off on their own. I also think that she doesn't have many interests of her own. The stereotypical soccer mom spends all of her time going to, from, or at her kids' activities. She doesn't work outside the home, and she only gets the opportunity to interact with other, like-minded soccer moms.<br /><br />According to <a href="http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Soccer_mom">Wikipedia</a>:<br /><blockquote>The phrase <i>soccer mom</i> generally refers to a married middle-class woman who lives in the suburbs and has school age children.<sup id="cite_ref-ELECTION_0-0" class="reference"><a href="http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Soccer_mom#cite_note-ELECTION-0"><span></span><span></span></a></sup><sup id="cite_ref-1" class="reference"><a href="http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Soccer_mom#cite_note-1"><span></span><span></span></a></sup> She is sometimes portrayed in the media as busy or overburdened and driving a <a href="http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Minivan" title="Minivan">minivan</a>.<sup id="cite_ref-MOMMY_2-0" class="reference"><a href="http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Soccer_mom#cite_note-MOMMY-2"><span></span></a></sup> She is also portrayed as putting the interests of her family, and most importantly her children, ahead of her own.<br /></blockquote>It seems like my concept of soccer mom is a little more in-depth, but not too far off the general view. What do you think of, when you think "soccer mom?"M. Lubbershttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13689096558796490683noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-19178228.post-84228078937320888372012-03-17T17:18:00.002-04:002012-03-17T17:21:49.452-04:00Cathartic Haikus: Smoking DriverYour carelessly flicked<br />glowing cigarette stub sparks,<br />and ignites my ire.M. Lubbershttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13689096558796490683noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-19178228.post-59227090372594269882012-03-12T15:38:00.005-04:002012-03-12T16:06:46.825-04:00A little less paranoia, a little more calm<a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjAVojjCnvOKQWy13dbXFjstJyxFwRoUVINALPBFqPP14UHa8EQqrqxS8ghLyBJPLZdqsuPm-TbgrbT0b4Ue_HUMKiwvRfUFugj-GKygEPZbcHixK6l7KqzBquU_cx3BCpey2g/s1600/declan.jpg"><img style="float:left; margin:0 10px 10px 0;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 214px; height: 320px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjAVojjCnvOKQWy13dbXFjstJyxFwRoUVINALPBFqPP14UHa8EQqrqxS8ghLyBJPLZdqsuPm-TbgrbT0b4Ue_HUMKiwvRfUFugj-GKygEPZbcHixK6l7KqzBquU_cx3BCpey2g/s320/declan.jpg" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5719104315099993458" border="0" /></a>I'm sad to say that I'm already starting to wean Declan. I made it 8 months with Eleanor, and I was hoping to make it that long with Declan. Even to make it to six months would have been great, but it's just not working out. (FYI: If you are of a certain gender or age where a discussion of breastfeeding weirds you out, you might want to stop reading right now.)<br /><br />For the first four months, I had been supplementing him only about 6 ounces of formula per day. Since babies that age are getting over 20 ounces per day, I felt pretty good about that. I usually made it through the first half of the day without any bottles, and then had to give him more formula further into the evening as my supply ran low. But suddenly, right around the 4-month mark, in just a few days, I went from giving him 6 oz of formula to 12 and then 18 .... I was very frustrated, angry, and upset.<br /><br />Why did this happen? I have no idea. But I do know that I promised myself I wouldn't be all crazy about breastfeeding like I was with Eleanor. With baby #1, I felt like that was the ONLY thing I could give her that no one else could, and if I wasn't nursing then I might as well be some automaton instead of a mother. Is this crazy? Yes. And I'm sure some part of my rational brain knew that, but it was vastly overruled by the crazy, post-partum, new-mom hormonal part of my brain. So with Eleanor, I pumped and pumped to try and increase (or at least keep) my supply. I'm pretty sure I pumped at least once a day, if not more, for her first six months. For the first 4 months I never missed a feeding; of this I'm absolutely certain, because she refused to take a bottle. From months 4-6, I probably only missed a few, because I was paranoid that any time I missed a feeding, my supply would drop.<br /><br />I've tried very hard not to worry about it so much this time. Declan's weight has never been an issue, and with a toddler as well, I simply don't have the time to devote to breastfeeding like I did last time. And I've seen with my own eyes that I'm still Eleanor's Mom, irreplaceable in her eyes (God help her), even though we've been done with breastfeeding for nearly 3 years and counting.<br /><br />So when I had this inexplicable, dramatic drop in my milk supply, I didn't fight it as hard as I would have the first time around. I had a week of trying to convince myself it was temporary and I could go back to how it was before, but it wasn't to be. So I shrugged my shoulders and started dropping nursings. Last week, I stopped nursing for the last feeding of the day. This week, the last two feedings will be with a bottle. That's how I did it with Eleanor--I gave myself a lot of time to come to grips with the fact that it was actually happening. Like everything else, however, I'm not sure if it will play out the same way.<br /><br />With Eleanor, I was supplementing her while she was nursing, so adding more formula didn't decrease the time she nursed. By the end, I was giving her a full amount of formula while she nursed, and I would just tell myself that she was also getting a little breastmilk too, although I had no way of knowing for sure. (You know, if this is too much talk about my breasts, feel free to stop reading right now. Just saying.) But with Declan, because he does take a bottle, I usually nurse him and then give him a bottle. He's getting to where, other than the first feeding of the day, he doesn't really think the nursing is worth his time and he'd rather just go straight to the bottle.<br /><br />At this point, I'm just hoping we can make it a couple more weeks. I want to make it past the 5-month mark (3/17), a bit into the sixth month, so I can round up and tell people (mostly myself) that we made it 6 months. Is this logical? I doubt it. But sometimes it's just easier to accept the crazy and go with the flow.<br /><br />I guess that's my new point of view. When the crazy makes me frustrated and pushes me over the edge, I need to resist. But sometimes, when the crazy is relatively mild, it's easier to just accept it.<br /><br />Right now, I'm trying to remind myself of all the good aspects of being done with nursing:<br /><ul><li>My body, saggy and out-of-shape as it is, will finally be my own again.</li><li>No more nursing bras.</li><li>We'll be so much more free to go and do things doing the day, since I'm not worried about getting home for feedings.</li><li>I won't be worried about Declan's weight and how much he's eating, since there's an endless supply of formula. Not cheap, but endless!</li><li>I won't be so worried about missing feedings, since I won't have to worry about my supply. So I will be able to go do things with a clear conscience and actually enjoy them. </li></ul><p>If any other moms have any suggestions to cheer me up, benefits to weaning, feel free to share! The not-crazy side of me would like a bit more encouragement.<br /></p>M. Lubbershttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13689096558796490683noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-19178228.post-754111974406427422012-03-09T11:12:00.003-05:002012-03-09T11:40:08.906-05:00... And We're Back!<a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiONb9u2Bo6GoA8UqnJOvAvsVHBYUKCLgKFsJV4e_XfrzBSjXlLQLfvk9EBFT1cYIrnmEX618p5Eh21U5mjKNCxD5wJShJVgmarwyN9XUtV4sg8lnNUv_CP_0-Hw0T2Yqgyl-w/s1600/kids_Feb+copy.jpg"><img style="float:left; margin:0 10px 10px 0;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 214px; height: 320px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiONb9u2Bo6GoA8UqnJOvAvsVHBYUKCLgKFsJV4e_XfrzBSjXlLQLfvk9EBFT1cYIrnmEX618p5Eh21U5mjKNCxD5wJShJVgmarwyN9XUtV4sg8lnNUv_CP_0-Hw0T2Yqgyl-w/s320/kids_Feb+copy.jpg" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5717938030450698866" border="0" /></a>Back from my January/February hiatus, ready to dazzle and entertain you once again.<br /><br />If you were a stickler for details, you might be tempted to point out that it's already March 9; isn't this big comeback a bit late? Shouldn't this post have appeared on March 1?<br /><br />But since you're my friend, and you know I'm a delicate flower with volatile emotions, I trust you will resist the urge to point out that my hiatus went a week longer than planned. I think that, in actuality, the thought of returning to blogging on a regular basis scared me a little bit. After weeks with no deadlines, could I keep a regular posting schedule?<br /><br />Well, probably not. But that's because I never really have. My posting is always lighter at the beginning of the month, when I think I have <span style="font-style: italic;">ages</span> to post, and then the posts come fast and furious in the last week, when I say, "Oh crap! I only have one more week to get to 10 posts for the month!"<br /><br />So I am back, for what it's worth. Back to my inane drivel, and my sporadic, unreliable posting. I know you missed me!M. Lubbershttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13689096558796490683noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-19178228.post-48450762993007334392012-02-17T15:34:00.005-05:002012-02-17T16:23:43.105-05:00Happy 4 Months, Declan!<a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjccc__oU2-gOzOLVQW3tXxbWMi3KGiCWA0UNuPNY3MtBYPoaVwzaRaAKpkGd0yA_Ms4uUYvBpTkLiQz7HcxwxsUMhTMN-5a0m-pheZvqZ3yihjjPkcpoKde6TiEJrhASSoLSQ/s1600/4months.jpg"><img style="float:left; margin:0 10px 10px 0;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 214px; height: 320px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjccc__oU2-gOzOLVQW3tXxbWMi3KGiCWA0UNuPNY3MtBYPoaVwzaRaAKpkGd0yA_Ms4uUYvBpTkLiQz7HcxwxsUMhTMN-5a0m-pheZvqZ3yihjjPkcpoKde6TiEJrhASSoLSQ/s320/4months.jpg" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5710206779262034210" border="0" /></a>Today Declan turned 4 months old. His well visit to the doctor went ... well! He did get a few shots, but only cried for a moment. We got a pamphlet about starting him on solid foods, and stopped by Target on the way home to pick up some rice cereal.<br /><br />Most importantly, the doctor said that now is the time for sleep training (cry-it-out), if we want to. He recommended doing it between 4-6 months, because after that those babies are too crafty, and much too manipulative. It becomes exponentially harder to get your way ....<br /><br />I'm very excited and apprehensive and a mite sad to start sleep training. I know it's going to be hard to listen to him cry, even though I do believe that it's the healthiest for everyone in the long run. He'll sleep better and we'll sleep better.<br /><br />I have to confess, I've held him (or sometimes Keith or Grandma Karen) every night since he's been born. He doesn't like sleeping on his own. In the past month, he's slowly transitioned to taking all of his naps in a bouncy seat. (Keep in mind, what that means is, for the first 2 months, he was pretty much being held 24/7.) In the past week, we've put him down in the bouncy seat when we go to bed until he wakes up (usually around 1 o'clock). I feed him, and then take him to bed with me. It's possible he could go back into the bouncy seat and sleep, but I'm too tired to risk him deciding NOT to sleep at that point, so I'd rather just sleep with him.<br /><br />I'm very excited at the thought of returning to some kind of schedule. I long to have something of an assurance (although never an iron-clan guarantee) of getting 7 or 8 hours of sleep per night, without holding a baby, on a pretty regular basis. It will be a huge step towards returning to Normal Life, although I am sure Normal Life with 2 kids will still be somewhat uncharted territory.<br /><br />At the same time, I'm sad to give up sleeping with him. I've gotten so used to it over the past 4 months that it doesn't bother me nearly as much as you'd think. In Normal Life, if I had to sleep for hours without rolling over, that would be torture. But now, it's just what I do. The best part after a middle of the night feeding, when he goes right back to sleep and we climb back into bed. I lay down with him on my chest. He snuggles in, often reaching a hand up to curl around my neck or on my shoulder. I will miss those moments very much. Suddenly he'll be sleeping on his own, and those moments will be few and far between. And then I'll blink, and he'll be too big to lay comfortably on me anymore. Or too squirmy, or both.<br /><br />Infancy is such a short time. I'm actively trying to do a better job, this time around, of understanding that fact, and appreciating my beautiful baby boy while he's still a baby. When Declan wakes up from his nap (because, of course, naps are the only reason I ever get anything done during the day!) I'm hoping he's still a little sleepy so I can pick him up and cuddle him and marvel at his pudgy little baby perfection.M. Lubbershttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13689096558796490683noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-19178228.post-52623989436744463822012-02-07T09:35:00.002-05:002012-02-07T09:51:43.924-05:00February Update<a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiEtYWC7iiVDVxOsk1laWPaVxpIICpsdtSCcJdBIrH-HxaCGMOPqJu0yKkmlMNNeCNMMb5b7V7zO9QVjJNbzLua98cZNRW_iS2B6NqAwMkVng1hYpsjzDkIUZCa8mUV3zim_e4/s1600/feb1.jpg"><img style="float:left; margin:0 10px 10px 0;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 320px; height: 214px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiEtYWC7iiVDVxOsk1laWPaVxpIICpsdtSCcJdBIrH-HxaCGMOPqJu0yKkmlMNNeCNMMb5b7V7zO9QVjJNbzLua98cZNRW_iS2B6NqAwMkVng1hYpsjzDkIUZCa8mUV3zim_e4/s320/feb1.jpg" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5706406405418624130" border="0" /></a>Still here! We're all settling into our post-holidays routine. Well, some of us are. Declan hasn't been very good about sleeping through the night. I'm not saying he has to sleep 10 hours straight (although that would be nice ...), but after about a week of only waking up once in 7 hours, he's now gone back to waking up and eating every 2 hours at night. Not cool! Like many facets of baby behavior, I'll just keep my fingers crossed and hope that this development fades away soon.<br /><br />Something I never got around to mentioning earlier is that I am teaching this semester. I was on the fence about whether I was ready to go back or not. I told my department coordinator it would only make sense for me, fiscally, if I had an evening or online class so we didn't have to pay for childcare. At first there wasn't anything like that available, and I was equal parts disappointed and relieved. But then an evening class opened up, so now on Tuesdays and Thursdays I give Keith a quick kiss when he gets home from work, hand over the kids, and run out the door. I've really been enjoying it! They're a good class and it's a nice change of pace from being a SAHM. It's gratifying to do something that isn't undone a few hours later (changing diapers, washing laundry, cleaning the kitchen, making meals). I think it's a lot harder on Keith, though, to come home after being at work/commuting for 10 hours, to then be charge of the kids for nearly 3 hours. It wouldn't be that bad, except Declan has made it clear that he doesn't approve of this arrangement. We're both keeping our fingers crossed that he changes his mind soon, or at least stops protesting so vociferously, because if he keeps this up I think Keith might need a hearing aid by the end of the semester.<br /><br />I think those are the only major developments. Our winter has been very mild, and I'm keeping my fingers crossed that it continues! When I need to get out of the house, I usually take Beckett on walks around the block (a mile). I've been much more prone to that since the snow melted and hasn't really come back. Plus, Eleanor has ridden her tricycle with us the past two times. I've been so impressed with her, riding for a whole mile! She's so motivated; not once has she asked me to carry her or push her along. Sometimes she needs one or two pushes to get over cracks, uphill, etc, but just for a few seconds and then she's off again. Watching her race ahead of me, it's almost like I see her growing up before my very eyes.<br /><br />Yesterday she wanted something with her lunch. "After all," she reminded me, "I'm almost 4 years old."<br /><br />I know, sweetheart. It will be here before we know it! And then, suddenly, you'll be 33 and living in a purple house and a professional ballet dancer, just like you're planning. Life changes so fast!M. Lubbershttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13689096558796490683noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-19178228.post-33925871018419277712012-01-29T17:19:00.003-05:002012-01-29T17:31:22.001-05:00On Hiatus<a href="http://www.flickr.com/photos/klubbers/3969542875/" title="book by klubbers, on Flickr"><img src="http://farm4.staticflickr.com/3520/3969542875_fb45a650be.jpg" alt="book" width="500" height="337" /></a><br /><br />As you may have already noticed, I've been on unofficial hiatus since the end of last year. I didn't really mean to take a break, I just kind of ... never ... posted. By mid-January, I was thinking about actively choosing to stop posting for awhile, instead of passively letting it happen, and feeling guilty about it.<br /><br />A main goal for this blog is for me to write regularly, and hold myself accountable. It works very well in that respect, and I'm more motivated to write because I enjoy getting comments and knowing that people are reading it. However, when I spend time writing and editing posts for the blog, I'm not working on any of my other writing projects that might, someday, actually get published and get me paid!<br /><br />So I've decided to stop blogging through the end of February. I have a short novella that's all outlined, half-written, that's been sitting around for several years. I'd like to finish writing it, edit it, and send it off for possible publication. Will it actually get published? Well, I have no control over that. But if I can finish it, clean it up, and send it on, I would be very happy with that effort.<br /><br />By choosing to not blog in order to get this done, that is definitely motivation to make the most of the time I have right now, to commit myself to one project and see it through. I might pop by the blog from time to time for a brief update, but I won't start writing regularly again until March. This means that, to meet my minimum annual posting goal of 120 posts, I'll need to write about 12 posts/month from March through December. So you have a brief respite from me now, but I will (hopefully) be a posting machine from March onward!<br /><br />Enjoy some happy, chilly months.M. Lubbershttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13689096558796490683noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-19178228.post-21346502695994267712011-12-30T15:25:00.001-05:002011-12-30T15:25:02.004-05:00All Caught Up!<a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEh_V6CgXq4N6WktJ4dpLSBnANs4kvRhFjwzEQwyTimRoJtWNlNHFiwZzk0pYLLkiy5qaVy021E4a2SuR92cyR1qP2HKisKNzDAkQ4OpvKxM2EfRyUjBPwkGF2eJ4UpXcrL9i3Q/s1600/excitement.jpg"><img style="float:left; margin:0 10px 10px 0;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 320px; height: 214px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEh_V6CgXq4N6WktJ4dpLSBnANs4kvRhFjwzEQwyTimRoJtWNlNHFiwZzk0pYLLkiy5qaVy021E4a2SuR92cyR1qP2HKisKNzDAkQ4OpvKxM2EfRyUjBPwkGF2eJ4UpXcrL9i3Q/s320/excitement.jpg" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5691279415579822882" border="0" /></a>After several days of double posts, I'm FINALLY all caught up with my half-written post backlog! I'm very excited, for the first time in ages and just in time for the New Year, to be all caught up. (I think this new picture of Eleanor will be my standard one for any "excited" post from now on. It really just captures that emotion so well.)<br /><br />I met and (barely) surpassed my goal of 120 posts for the year. The year Eleanor was born I only managed 94 posts, so I'm happy with just meeting that goal. If I get to about the same number of posts again next year, I'll be happy with that!<br /><br />I'm not so bold as to make numerous crazy New Year's Resolutions like I did when I<a href="http://arightgapesnest.blogspot.com/2006/12/last-years-resolutions.html"> first started blogging</a>. (Read 50 books!) All I'm willing to commit to is that I will do my best to maintain the status quo, in real life and virtual life, as Declan grows into a crawling, drooling, babbling, then walking, talking baby. I'll do my best to keep eating as well and no better, clean the house just enough so that it doesn't get any grungier than it already is, and run as many races in 2012 as I did in 2011. (I think that commits me to one 5k only.) I promise to work towards continuing my mediocre email response time and relatively reliable, if not prolific, blog posting.<br /><br />Happy New Year!M. Lubbershttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13689096558796490683noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-19178228.post-10302305816633671012011-12-30T07:34:00.003-05:002011-12-30T07:34:01.932-05:00Photo Challenge: Black and WhiteI've missed several weeks of blogging about his pictures, but Keith never has. For the past 52 weeks, come rain or shine, new baby or beach vacation, Keith has taken, edited, and posted a picture by the weekly Wednesday deadline, every time. This blows my mind. As someone who often struggles to post some cogent thoughts 10 times a month with no need to set up shots and choose then edit a finished photo, I am in awe of his dedication. Some weeks were more fun and easy, and some less. But he always did it, and I feel that says something about the person that Keith is. That's the kind of guy I want to be married to.<br /><br />Anyway, the final week of the year's challenge was "Black and White." As you can tell, Declan didn't really like the reindeer suit, although we thought it was adorable.<br /><a href="http://www.flickr.com/photos/klubbers/6585382297/" title="Black & White by klubbers, on Flickr"><img src="http://farm8.staticflickr.com/7023/6585382297_6b41d245da.jpg" alt="Black & White" height="500" width="333" /></a><br /><br />Some of the other pictures that I've missed over the past few weeks succinctly tell the story of our first weeks after Declan was born. The first was taken a week before Declan was born: It was the picture Keith <span style="font-style: italic;">wanted </span>to take for the prompt of "silhouette" but the prompt didn't come in time.<br /><a href="http://www.flickr.com/photos/klubbers/6238807357/" title="Silhouette - First Take by klubbers, on Flickr"><img src="http://farm7.staticflickr.com/6036/6238807357_0b2de8bc0a.jpg" alt="Silhouette - First Take" height="500" width="323" /></a><br /><br />The next week, Keith had no trouble finding a "square" picture at the hospital:<br /><a href="http://www.flickr.com/photos/klubbers/6261711138/" title="Square by klubbers, on Flickr"><img src="http://farm7.staticflickr.com/6228/6261711138_a34f01f711.jpg" alt="Square" height="500" width="324" /></a><br /><br />And our brand new baby boy was an easy choice for "blue."<br /><a href="http://www.flickr.com/photos/klubbers/6283137277/" title="Blue by klubbers, on Flickr"><img src="http://farm7.staticflickr.com/6162/6283137277_f71ac75ab7.jpg" alt="Blue" height="333" width="500" /></a><br /><br />Even with a newborn, life continued on for Eleanor. Keith made the most of a gorgeous Fall day to first blow most of the leaves to the front curb <span style="font-style:italic;">then</span> rake a special leaf pile for Eleanor, and then take some pictures of her jumping into it. (To be fair, it also helped that his parents were visiting that weekend, and his dad brought the leaf blower.)<br /><a href="http://www.flickr.com/photos/klubbers/6326928667/" title="Mischief by klubbers, on Flickr"><img src="http://farm7.staticflickr.com/6212/6326928667_8c133d8159.jpg" alt="Mischief" height="333" width="500" /></a><br /><br />Finally, "silhouette"! This turned into sort of a companion piece to the silhouette picture he'd wanted to take.<br /><a href="http://www.flickr.com/photos/klubbers/6352228626/" title="Silhouette by klubbers, on Flickr"><img src="http://farm7.staticflickr.com/6060/6352228626_d51878503c.jpg" alt="Silhouette" height="500" width="333" /></a><br /><br />Keith said that he's going to sign up for <a href="http://www.flickr.com/groups/2012weeklypic/">another photo challenge</a> next year. He admits that it's a lot of time and effort, but he strongly feels that his picture taking and editing skills have been challenged and improved through the Flickr challenge group in ways that he would never have done on his own. It's his photography equivalent of a workout partner. I look forward to seeing what he comes up with! (And sometimes blogging about it.)M. Lubbershttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13689096558796490683noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-19178228.post-74654702978234945652011-12-29T15:51:00.000-05:002011-12-29T15:51:01.012-05:00Our Family Christmas<a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhtR7NUmRmcKGPHqLuw6f_6O0fipqMEHfgtnRuQRaI8zClHg93xl4jrs0A63pQuv9wVMyfIozx0UwseNncJEa2xt9C6isCYwAoaWGNvchFmqtF9sVuqt2U5He24qDLJ039Qv9E/s1600/IMG_6579.JPG"><img style="float:left; margin:0 10px 10px 0;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 214px; height: 320px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhtR7NUmRmcKGPHqLuw6f_6O0fipqMEHfgtnRuQRaI8zClHg93xl4jrs0A63pQuv9wVMyfIozx0UwseNncJEa2xt9C6isCYwAoaWGNvchFmqtF9sVuqt2U5He24qDLJ039Qv9E/s320/IMG_6579.JPG" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5691280137247121010" border="0" /></a>Once we made it through the hustle and bustle of buying, making, baking, wrapping, cleaning, cooking, decorating, and re-buying things I forgot or ran out of (like wine), our Christmas was good.<br /><br />We had so much fun because this was the first year that Eleanor really <span style="font-style: italic;">got</span> it. She knew all about Santa Claus. We decorated gingerbread houses, baked cookies, bought special Christmas outfits for the kids, visited Santa, bought presents for her immediate family and wrapped them. She loved all of it.<br /><br />One of our favorite Christmastime activities this year was an interactive Advent calendar by <a href="http://landing.jacquielawson.com/jl_brand?source=jl505&002=2136061&004=1082494162&005=950389402&006=10044101242&007=Search&008=&gclid=CMCl5vOKqK0CFcOP7QodnTDTkw">Jacqui Lawson</a> that my Mom sent us. There's a couple options, but we got the London one since Keith and I have fond memories of that city. There was no temptation to skip ahead, since it only lets you open that day's door and previous days. We also had a "real" paper Advent calendar that we opened at dinner with Keith, but Eleanor and <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_0">Declan</span> and I would open the computer Advent calendar first thing in the morning. Then Eleanor would spent the next 10-20 minutes opening old days or the same day over and over again. It was a cute calendar that brought back fond memories of my time in England, and it was also a nice way to ease into the day.<br /><br />Christmas Eve we hosted a small family gathering in the afternoon. In the past we've had it later, but with the kids and the fact that I like to fit in church service at some point, it seemed easier to have it in the afternoon and then everyone could disperse to any other gatherings/activities they desired. It did feel lower maintenance to have it in the afternoon, and to serve the food buffet style instead of a sit-down meal.<br /><br />Before I knew it, our open house party was over and Mom, Eleanor, and I headed to the traditional Christmas Eve service at the <a href="http://www.uucleveland.org/">Unitarian <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_1">Universalist</span> Society of Cleveland</a>. Keith and Eleanor and I have been to the church several times before <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_2">Declan</span> was born (that's a whole different post) and I really like their approach to religion and spirituality. I was a little leery of a Christmas Eve service there, however; there's not many parts of traditional religion that I like, but I have always loved Christmas Eve carol services. It seems like the month of December and the actual holiday pass by so quickly, I really value attending the Christmas Eve service and taking an hour to calm down, breathe deeply, and think about family and what the holiday really means to me. So although I wasn't sure what to think beforehand, it was a lovely service--traditional, true to their word--in that there were plenty of Christmas carols and the story of <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_3">Jesus's</span> birth. Yet <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_4">untraditional</span> when the homily mentions, "Some Christians believe that Jesus was the Son of God incarnate" and they mention that the Christian advent wreath is based on the pagan wheel of fire.<br /><br />So I did enjoy the Christmas Eve service, as always. Then we went back home, my parents and older sister stayed a little while after Eleanor went to bed and then they headed home themselves. Keith and I took turns holding <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_5">Declan</span> and wrapping presents, and finally got to bed around midnight.<br /><br />Our first (and best) Christmas present was when Eleanor AND <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_6">Declan</span> both slept in until 9 o'clock on Christmas morning. The next best moment was hearing Eleanor call, "Is it morning time? I want to go look and see if Santa left us presents!" and watching her eyes light up as she opened presents. We took the present opening very slowly, letting Eleanor set the pace as she opened a present and really looked at it and even started playing with a few before moving onto the next present. Even taking our time, Eleanor got worn out. We'd saved the Santa presents for last and she had one more to open when she called a halt to the proceedings.<br /><br />We stared at her incredulously. "Do you want to wait until after breakfast to open your last present?" we asked. She confirmed her intentions and we trooped off to breakfast.<br /><br />Halfway through breakfast Eleanor suddenly sat up and said, "I never got my ballerina fairy baby doll!" She'd gotten everything else that she'd asked Santa for, but not that.<br /><br />"Well, you have one more present," I reminded her. "Do you want to go open it?"<br /><br />We got up from the table and ran back into the living room where she opened her final present, triumphantly holding her ballerina (not fairy) baby doll aloft.<br /><br />The rest of Christmas Day passed in a pleasant haze of delicious food, good company, and relaxation. We played with Eleanor's toys, held <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_7">Declan</span>, opened presents with my family, and watched as much of <span style="font-style: italic;">A Christmas Story</span> as we could fit in between other activities. I also really enjoyed Boxing Day, when Keith slept in and Eleanor, <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_8">Declan</span> and I came down to the living room in our pajamas and spent several hours opening and playing with her toys.<br /><br />Our first Christmas as a family of four was a fabulous success. I'm already so excited for next year, when <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_9">Declan</span> is 14 months old and Eleanor can help even more with the baking and decorating and present-buying. Merry Christmas and Happy New Year!M. Lubbershttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13689096558796490683noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-19178228.post-59468578517615276332011-12-29T07:15:00.005-05:002011-12-29T07:15:00.071-05:00Crafty Christmas<a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhUZKmZNJx7rpXS3BKXEzbqOQ6-OPq6AiS8FSGtGswCQLvZXqE99gDIRBQ7yYb1lkCcMTAMV_wlBLUNtf1S4VwBqfYkbMgtlokdCADmehP5X4B9q7OoStdzfNeGSaxZzev5Tsk/s1600/tulle1.jpg"><img style="float:left; margin:0 10px 10px 0;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 320px; height: 240px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhUZKmZNJx7rpXS3BKXEzbqOQ6-OPq6AiS8FSGtGswCQLvZXqE99gDIRBQ7yYb1lkCcMTAMV_wlBLUNtf1S4VwBqfYkbMgtlokdCADmehP5X4B9q7OoStdzfNeGSaxZzev5Tsk/s320/tulle1.jpg" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5691277733375574738" border="0" /></a>I've found that there's a spectrum of Christmas gift-giving through which I move, depending on my mood and our financial situation. The year that Eleanor was born, and again this year, I've made most of our Christmas gifts. My thought is that I'm home all the time, and we don't have a lot of extra cash.<br /><br />And yet, I spend so much money on all the craft supplies .... I wonder if doing all of this extra work is even saving any money?!? Of course, I do enjoy making gifts, which is part of the motivation, but it's still a lot of time and effort. I promised myself that, this year, I would actually write down everything I spend instead of just guesstimating. This way, if I spend just as much as I would have if I had bought presents, next year I will buy online with no feelings of guilt.<br /><br />One place my gift-giving spectrum never goes is to the malls. I have no desire to shop in overpriced stores with cookie cutter inventory. If I'm not making my gifts, I'm most likely buying them online via <a href="http://www.etsy.com/">Etsy</a> or <a href="http://www.amazon.com/">Amazon</a>, or in person at <a href="http://www.target.com/">Target</a> or discount stores like <a href="http://www.marshallsonline.com/">Marshall's</a> and <a href="http://shop.tuesdaymorning.com/">Tuesday Morning</a> (that's where nearly all of Eleanor's and Declan's gifts came from this year).<br /><br />I'd like to post links to some of the items we (Keith helped a lot!) made this year, but since we haven't exchanged gifts yet with Keith's family, I can't really do that. Instead, pictured is the<br /><a href="http://www.designmom.com/2008/12/tulle-tutorial/">no-sew tutu</a> I meant to make for Eleanor. I even bought the supplies, but ran out of time. I guess it will be a random, Thursday morning in February gift, whenever I get around to making it. Incomplete crafts: The gifts that just keep on giving!M. Lubbershttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13689096558796490683noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-19178228.post-90626684695144912792011-12-28T19:02:00.000-05:002011-12-28T19:02:00.064-05:00Missed Moments: Halloween<a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjKv7rna7C7R8UOUhHvvzfJftWFOkr9i71c1715lXMB1JD5jZyEElkYQKZiO7hfg4NXJ4ksSnwodqrwma6na2PrtnyXPxDDH5yxd5EsNdHxgRngEcIQZiC_vkNUTvKqYB_PWws/s1600/halloween.jpg"><img style="float:left; margin:0 10px 10px 0;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 214px; height: 320px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjKv7rna7C7R8UOUhHvvzfJftWFOkr9i71c1715lXMB1JD5jZyEElkYQKZiO7hfg4NXJ4ksSnwodqrwma6na2PrtnyXPxDDH5yxd5EsNdHxgRngEcIQZiC_vkNUTvKqYB_PWws/s320/halloween.jpg" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5690893229338192834" border="0" /></a>You can tell when Eleanor started picking her own Halloween costumes. Her first two Halloweens she was a pirate and a sushi chef. Then last year she was a (pink) ballerina and this year she was a (pink) fairy princess. She had told me she was just going to pick out something from her regular dress-up clothes to wear, which was fine with me.<br /><br />But then we were shopping at a discount store and I found a pink fairy costume for only $5. It looked like $5 was a fair price for the flimsy dress, plastic wings, and bent crown. But it also only had to last one night, right? We bought it, I let her try it on once at home, and then we put it away to heighten the anticipation (and keep it intact) until Halloween.<br /><br />What struck me most about Halloween, and about the first few weeks following Declan's birth, was that life continued on pretty normally. After Eleanor was born our world was turned upside-down, inside-out, and any other phrase indicating a complete and total break from life before baby. I know it was partly because she was our first born, and going from married couple to parents is a big change. Even if you have pets; sorry, it just doesn't compare.<br /><br />But another reason life with Eleanor had been so challenging is that we had a lot of problems with feeding her. She didn't want to eat and she wasn't reliably gaining weight. (Sometimes she would do fine, and then sometimes she plateaued, which little babies are not supposed to do.) All she really wanted to do was sleep, which her doctors told us was not allowed. So we would spend hours trying to wake her up and night and get her to eat, with very little success. On top of that, I was also pumping to try and increase my milk supply, and her feedings could easily take an hour at least. I think it would not be an exaggeration to say that, for the first few weeks, I was spending nearly 20 hours a day trying to feed her or in feeding-related activities. It was awful.<br /><br />After a while we calmed down and things got better. We started letting her sleep through the night (rather than go against medical advice, we just assumed she was old enough and stopped asking the doctors if it was okay) and that improved everyone's disposition a LOT. We figured out a feeding system that worked for us, and I stopped relying on the scale to tell me if I was succeeding or failing as a parent. Eleanor was old enough that she could tell us how things were going, and she was a very happy, smiley baby.<br /><br />This time around, I've done a much better job of ignoring the scale from day one. We went in for a few lactation consultations, and I specifically requested they NOT weigh him, so I couldn't obsess over the numbers (nor could they). I'm not perfect, and I nearly had a breakdown at his two-month appointment a few days ago because I thought he hadn't gained enough weight. The 15 minutes between getting him weighed and hearing the doctor say he was fine were self-imposed torture. But I NEVER voluntarily weigh him, and I'm doing a much better job of letting Declan tell me if he's hungry.<br /><br />So anyway, this relates to Halloween because it was a mere two weeks after Declan was born and instead of being lost in some weird baby vortex, separated physically and mentally from the normal world, we were just getting on with things. Making and eating dinner at a reasonable hour, getting Eleanor to preschool, and enjoying her first Halloween where she trick-or-treated with friends.<br /><br />Of course, her friends live down the block, and we still didn't even make it off the block before she called it quits. But we got to walk around with the other parents and watch the kids run eagerly up to every house. I felt like part of the regular world, even if I was getting up two times a night to feed the baby. At least this baby wakes up and cries, eats, and goes back to sleep. How amazing!<br /><br />Said baby stayed at home during trick-or-treating, cuddled in Grandma Karen's arms while she handed out candy. But next year! Next year he will be a sushi chef or race car driver ... just preferably something not pink.M. Lubbershttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13689096558796490683noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-19178228.post-54538089533648834212011-12-28T13:42:00.000-05:002011-12-28T13:42:01.016-05:00Missed Moments: The Birth (of Declan)<a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhAdh5T3iac_e8jUt07IyNQLQUJWG97YxeS5Bs65-m7ZcReMsJxsLxqAM8mykJ6iFCVTTGK1WCVBHz5ES4NEEXfklkuYUMUX_lPAY-n7kuFSAhxv0uJ2_4AnxCZdq82KgpiiYY/s1600/birth.jpg"><img style="float:left; margin:0 10px 10px 0;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 320px; height: 214px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhAdh5T3iac_e8jUt07IyNQLQUJWG97YxeS5Bs65-m7ZcReMsJxsLxqAM8mykJ6iFCVTTGK1WCVBHz5ES4NEEXfklkuYUMUX_lPAY-n7kuFSAhxv0uJ2_4AnxCZdq82KgpiiYY/s320/birth.jpg" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5690911395475027698" border="0" /></a>So my <a href="http://arightgapesnest.blogspot.com/2011/12/missed-moments-birth-of-eleanor.html">birth experience with Eleanor</a> was, overall, even better than I had hoped for. It was very quick, I made it through without pain meds, and I woke up already in labor so I didn't spend a lot of time worrying about false contractions. The second time around, I hoped for more of the same.<br /><br />Ha! First of all, as I have already extensively complained about, Declan was a week late. A week! That's like a whole other 9 months to a hugely pregnant woman. The waiting is excruciating. Plus, I had serious false contractions on 2 or 3 separate occasions. I woke up in the middle of the night with a tingle of anticipation, sure that it was happening just like Eleanor ... and then nothing.<div><br /></div><div>I tried very hard to wait patiently and go into labor naturally. As we waited for Declan (or "Little Sibling" as we called the baby before it was born) to decide to make an appearance, I had several non-stress tests and an ultrasound to make sure the baby was still safe and happy in the womb. The ultrasound estimated the baby's weight at 8 lbs, 13 oz, and my doctor strongly encouraged me to think seriously about inducing.<br /><br />I was adamant about waiting, though. I would let this baby come when it was ready; I wasn't going to be induced just because it was more convenient and easier for me. Plus, if I were induced that labor would probably take longer, and I would probably be more likely to need the epidural .... I felt like inducing would start a domino effect of many choices taking me further and further from the natural birth I had experienced with Eleanor, and wanted again.<br /><br />And yet. I had another follow-up appointment on a Monday, exactly a week after the original due date. Sunday night, Keith and I discussed it and I was still firm in waiting as long as possible before being induced. My doctor had told me he was willing to wait until Wednesday, and that's how long I would give it. But as I stood in the shower Monday morning before my appointment, I suddenly had this feeling that this baby was NEVER going to choose on its own to come it. It was digging in its heels (quite literally, it seemed like I could feel them poking my ribs) and would not be coming out unless forced. I finished my shower, got dressed, and came downstairs.<br /><br />"I want to be induced," I announced to a very surprised Keith.<br /><br />We were still surprised, however, when we got to the appointment and I told the doctor I wanted to be induced. I figured he'd tell me to check into the hospital that night to be put on a Pitocin drip, and the baby would be born in the morning. Instead, he told us he's not at the hospital on Tuesdays, so I could either check into the hospital in a couple hours and the baby would be born that very night, or I could wait and check in late night Tuesday, so the baby was born Wednesday morning.<br /><br />Well, since I had decided I was done waiting, hanging around for another day and a half before checking into the hospital for an inducement wasn't really an option. If I was going to be induced, I wanted to just go ahead and do it!<br /><br />So we went home, made sure our bags were packed and made arrangements for Eleanor's care, and headed to the hospital. It felt so surreal, to be casually driving to the hospital on a beautiful, sunny afternoon, knowing that next time I drove home, it would be with a baby.<br /><br />As I had feared, choosing the induction changed the whole progression of labor. We were at the hospital for nearly two hours before the paperwork and initial assessments were done, and I was put on the low level Pitocin drip. Then I was on that for about 3 hours with very minor cramping--definitely nothing strong enough to feel like I was in labor.<br /><br />We'd asked my parents and Keith's mom to bring Eleanor up to the labor and delivery room during this low-key phase of the process. When we'd said good-bye to her before preschool that morning, we had been expecting to pick her up a few hours later and continue on with life as normal. Instead, we went to the hospital and she went to a friend's house, and it made me sad to think that it had been our last moment as a family of three and we'd missed it.<br /><br />Unfortunately, with Eleanor's nap the timing worked out that they arrived mere moments <span style="font-style: italic;">after</span> the doctor broke my water. That meant it wasn't low-key and casual anymore, but getting to serious labor very quickly. I wanted so much to enjoy some time with Eleanor and our families, but immediately the contractions were very intense. Keith saw the look on my face as I tried to refrain from showing Eleanor that I was in any sort of discomfort and he quickly shooed everyone else out of the room.<br /><br />The doctor stopped by again not long after that and told me that everything was progressing quickly; if I wanted an epidural, it would have to be soon. This time around, I didn't really even try to resist the lure of a nearly pain-free labor and delivery. I'd had too much time sitting in the hospital, thinking about what was coming. Add to that the fact that the real contractions started when Eleanor was visiting, and I felt completely unprepared, mentally, to handle a natural birth.<br /><br />In retrospect, I don't think the pain was any worse than it had been the first time around, but my reaction to it was the polar opposite. Instead of breathing through it and focusing on something else, I focused 100% on the pain and kept telling myself just how painful and terrible it really was. That's not really a good pain management strategy.<br /><br />So, shortly after that, I got the epidural and Keith and I settled back into the low-key waiting phase. We watched <span style="font-style: italic;">Wheel of Fortune</span> and <span style="font-style: italic;">Jeopardy!</span>. By this point I was starting to feel more pressure, so I figured the epidural was wearing off.<br /><br />The doctor reappeared (what do they do in-between?) and announced that the increased pressure actually meant that I was ready to start pushing. Which also meant I'd been ready to start pushing for some time, but hadn't realized it. Whoops! "That happens all the time," the nurse assured me. Well then, why didn't anymore warn me that increased pressure did NOT mean the epidural was wearing off, and I should call for the doctor?!?<br /><br />But I digress. One minute we were watching Final Jeopardy in a comfortable hotel room with low lighting. The next minute, the end of the bed was ripped away, people in surgical gloves and masks surrounded me, and intensely bright surgical lamps were shining in my face. It only took a few pushes, maybe 15 minutes if that, before Declan was born.<br /><br />I was honestly surprised Declan was a "he." I was surprised when Eleanor turned out to be a girl, because for some reason Keith and I both thought she would be a boy. And I guess there was a part of me expecting Baby #2 to be a girl just because that's what happened the first time, even though I know logically that there's a 50/50 chance of either sex.<br /><br />But a "he" it was. Keith and I immediately started crying and smiling as I held the baby in my arms. Eleanor was now officially a big sister, and we could finally meet and hold our new baby.<br /></div>M. Lubbershttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13689096558796490683noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-19178228.post-35094466830554299432011-12-27T17:45:00.001-05:002011-12-27T17:45:00.130-05:00Missed Moments: The Birth (of Eleanor)<a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEj4XPJiW_xFZ-TmutTQP2S1I2tdy2UM7fWHA0bzhRh9TVWNLyEEtgZzZxaVcATDomqELVOp0fUKi_4YqQObwLKomIYiNRM9WnWE81hirIqd7mxJ-s7LvS0wgPP7j_XhwPmoItw/s1600/eleanor-birth.jpg"><img style="float:left; margin:0 10px 10px 0;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 320px; height: 213px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEj4XPJiW_xFZ-TmutTQP2S1I2tdy2UM7fWHA0bzhRh9TVWNLyEEtgZzZxaVcATDomqELVOp0fUKi_4YqQObwLKomIYiNRM9WnWE81hirIqd7mxJ-s7LvS0wgPP7j_XhwPmoItw/s320/eleanor-birth.jpg" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5690914047471183826" border="0" /></a>Alright, so this post is 10 weeks after the big event. You may all be over this and ready to move on. But since Declan's birth, I've tried to remember with more precision what the early days were like with Eleanor, and I have no record of that, which saddens me. I'd like to better know what I was thinking and feeling in the moment, and be cognizant of how it's changed this time around.<br /><br />So, with that in mind, this is really a story of two very, very different births. To review, Eleanor was born 3 days after her due date. I woke up in the wee hours of the morning already experiencing some pretty intense contractions. I got a quick shower (Why? Because people had said to, and it was stuck in my head.) By the time I got out of the shower, my contractions were more intense. Still erratic, but wavering between 4 and 7 minutes apart.<br /><br />After all my worry about what we'd do with the dog, we did nothing. It was the middle of the night, and he rolled over and went back to sleep. By the time he was ready to wake up in the morning, my in-laws were at the house to let him out.<br /><br />The precise times are a bit fuzzy, but I think I woke up a little before 4am, checked into the hospital by 5ish ... and Eleanor was born at 9:14am. When we got to the hospital, I was experiencing a lot of lower back pain. I told Keith through gritted teeth that I wasn't sure I could go through with a natural birth. Bless him, he tried so hard to say the right thing.<br /><br />"You can do it ... if you want to ... but if you don't it's okay .... but if you do, then I'm sure that you can...."<br /><br />I settled in and decided to try and use breathing and visualization techniques to at least get me through the next few contractions. Then I could always re-evaluate.<br /><br />What followed next seemed very independent of time or outside influence. When I felt a contraction coming on, I started my deep breathing and focused on my calming image: Beckett and I taking a nap on the living room couch on a hot, sunny, quiet afternoon. I kept my eyes closed during and between the contractions, and even fell asleep sometimes.<br /><br />"Can I do anything?" Keith anxiously inquired. "Do you want a back massage?" Unbeknownst to me, he was worried because I was acting like the contractions were very intense, but they were barely even registering on the monitor ... until the nurse adjusted the monitoring belt, and then the next contraction was through the roof. Keith breathed a sigh of relief.<br /><br />A nurse (on-call doctor maybe?) came to check and see how far along I was, to see when they should call the Ob-Gyn from my practice to come in and deliver. I think at that point I was already at an 8, or at least definitely further along than they were expecting.<br /><br />When the doctor arrived and checked me, he was surprised (as we all were!) to find out that I was fully dilated and ready to push. Keith tells me I pushed for about 45 minutes (I had no clue about the time throughout the entire process). Finally, Eleanor was born.<br /><br /><span style="font-style: italic;">to be continued</span>M. Lubbershttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13689096558796490683noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-19178228.post-69819001268165084292011-12-27T15:00:00.000-05:002011-12-27T15:00:30.377-05:00Baby Projects: Blankets<a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiI3vX8XH7OBLuFdDmvLXeaDSooowB3Mm3pPfJgDCw2R4SSOxFGkCCxkVrF5vLJypJGzAHtsLptq9po09ns3HN2czCZakEhN45hp0uAcNVaZ8E0mQh3HxjfenGgRsqfTgSdaVE/s1600/blanket.jpg"><img style="float:left; margin:0 10px 10px 0;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 214px; height: 320px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiI3vX8XH7OBLuFdDmvLXeaDSooowB3Mm3pPfJgDCw2R4SSOxFGkCCxkVrF5vLJypJGzAHtsLptq9po09ns3HN2czCZakEhN45hp0uAcNVaZ8E0mQh3HxjfenGgRsqfTgSdaVE/s320/blanket.jpg" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5690894517911043842" border="0" /></a>In early October I had several blog entries about baby projects (which were really about <a href="http://arightgapesnest.blogspot.com/2011/09/baby-projects-eleanors-new-room.html">Eleanor's new room</a> and <a href="http://arightgapesnest.blogspot.com/2011/10/baby-projects-sewing.html">sewing her curtains</a>, since getting Eleanor out of the baby's room was the most extensive part of our preparations). This was meant to the final baby project post, but we never took any pictures of the blanket until there was actually a baby in it, ergo I'm just now posting.<br /><br />I made the exact same baby blanket I've made about ten times before--I'm definitely a creature of habit when it comes to knitting projects. If it ain't broke, and you're making the same blanket for a new baby, why change?<br /><br />I was disappointed, though, because this baby blanket is seriously tiny. It barely covers Declan now, and he's only 2 months old! Although I used the same pattern, I did use smaller needles and smaller yarn, and that had a much bigger effect than I was anticipating.<br /><br />While knitting Declan's blanket, I was also working on a second blanket for Eleanor. Her first is getting old and worn and is a little small for her. But my primary motivation for making her a new blanket was that she's incredibly attached to the first one. She calls it her "Mommy Blanket" because she knows I made it for her when she was still a baby in my belly. She always sleeps with it--not covering her, but cuddled in her arms. It is amazing to me that it means so much to her, and I turn into a puddle of goo whenever I check on her in bed and see it in her tight grasp. But I also worry about the serious meltdown prospects if something happens to it.<br /><br />I let her pick the yarn (baby pink, of course!) and for this I did use a new pattern, but a really simple one. Knit 7 rows with really big needles. Then knit 7 rows with small needles. Repeat. It's amazingly simple, but looks very nice.<br /><br />Unfortunately, Mommy Blanket #2 runs a far distant second to the first, and I'm not at all convinced that she would be consoled by its presence if disaster struck Mommy Blanket #1. Knowing this, and seeing how small Declan's blanket is, I should probably start on his second blanket now. Maybe I'll be more successful in getting him to adopt it and love it equally with the first.M. Lubbershttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13689096558796490683noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-19178228.post-76637958995774385872011-12-19T22:56:00.004-05:002011-12-19T23:03:58.594-05:00A Great Escape<a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEi2Cr3xZnJFSvQR9AinDYQcC_i_jpYGWYSMvBwT4x5hXItuSKzzvGhX2rH-3SZAU9Gkx6Wip-BafJBA4lUaaOv8RTF9fGo8j86-lmq4VjgweW_0COIg0dh4BxuZhdbPCMxEgjc/s1600/mischief.jpg"><img style="float:left; margin:0 10px 10px 0;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 214px; height: 320px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEi2Cr3xZnJFSvQR9AinDYQcC_i_jpYGWYSMvBwT4x5hXItuSKzzvGhX2rH-3SZAU9Gkx6Wip-BafJBA4lUaaOv8RTF9fGo8j86-lmq4VjgweW_0COIg0dh4BxuZhdbPCMxEgjc/s320/mischief.jpg" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5688056228084118626" border="0" /></a>My wonderful mother-in-law is visiting for a few days this week. She always tells me that I should do whatever I want to while she's here; she just wants to spend time with the kids and help out. Oh, and she always brings a bottle of wine.Who wouldn't like a mother-in-law like that?!?<br /><br />I did feel a bit guilty today, as I handed her the baby and dashed out of the house into the sweet, cold free air, that I always run out the door when she's in town. I take the opportunity to walk the dog or run errands without lugging a 30-pound baby and carseat and oftentimes unruly toddler with me. I relish the opportunity to go somewhere, anywhere, all by myself during the day, because it so rarely happens.<br /><br />I hope she realizes how much I appreciate the opportunity to get out. I'm not running away from her, I promise! I'm running toward peace and quiet.M. Lubbershttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13689096558796490683noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-19178228.post-14539597320412354822011-12-06T21:39:00.003-05:002011-12-06T22:26:36.703-05:00"My Baby's Got ... What?!?"<a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEj1goW1En4-qp8dVcUMw57B1CjB5lQceZZy7FhFIYkat5_gr3wbOAMszRh2dFXz_rwwdw7wG12gNWGkCXlKaLhVjNNDe0ZoEPmYV_rgaIny3LL5sj_cmS3bmdCpj2Lf6pWN_k4/s1600/declan.jpg"><img style="float:left; margin:0 10px 10px 0;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 214px; height: 320px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEj1goW1En4-qp8dVcUMw57B1CjB5lQceZZy7FhFIYkat5_gr3wbOAMszRh2dFXz_rwwdw7wG12gNWGkCXlKaLhVjNNDe0ZoEPmYV_rgaIny3LL5sj_cmS3bmdCpj2Lf6pWN_k4/s320/declan.jpg" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5683211595340092418" border="0" /></a>For a long time now, we've been playing a white noise CD in Eleanor's room during the night because we have squeaky old wooden floors and a dog who sometimes barks in his sleep. Now that <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_0">Declan's</span> around, the white noise is even more important.<br /><br />A few weeks ago, however, she figured out how to change her <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_1">iPod</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_2">nano</span> from the white noise to actual songs. Overall, I'm not sure how I feel about this. Will this keep her awake longer? There's still the benefit of background noise, but with lyrics and key changes, etc. As with so many other discipline issues of late, it comes down to the fact that I don't have enough energy to argue with her about it, so we chose a <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_3">playlist</span> of pretty mellow songs and left it at that.<br /><br />I don't know if it keeps her up (any more than anything else), but I have discovered that she does listen to the lyrics. At <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_4">naptime</span> one day last week, Ben <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_5">Folds's</span> cover of "Golden Slumbers" was playing when Eleanor asked me, "Did he say 'Once there was a wedding'?"<br /><br />I said, "No, he said, 'Once there was a way ... to get back homeward,'" and we then discussed the meaning of the lyrics before reading her princess stories and turning out the light.<br /><br />So tonight she was all tucked up in bed, and the rest of us were downstairs in the living room. Suddenly, we heard her music start blasting and a <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_6">pitter</span> patter of feet as she hopped back into bed. Keith went up to check out the situation, and when he came back down he was laughing so hard he could barely talk.<br /><br />Apparently, Eleanor turned up the music because she likes G. Love's "My Baby's Got Sauce." However, she told Keith he sang "My baby's got sores" and she liked that part. I'm guessing "sores" isn't really a part of her vocabulary yet, and I feel no need to enlighten her. We are going to have to listen to our music a little more closely, however, for profanity and the like before it makes it on her <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_7">iPod</span> and she starts singing it at school.M. Lubbershttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13689096558796490683noreply@blogger.com1